Blip in Mood

I had such a great few days.  Saturday I went to the St. Jacobs Market with my brother and sister-in-law. Sunday I didn’t feel well at all so stayed home. Monday I drove up to Barrie to have a visit with my two daughters. And despite the 4 hr round trip, I had such a lovely day.

But Tuesday I woke up feeling really out of sorts. Can’t describe in words. Just sort of sad and melancholy. Tired and worthless. I just don’t understand it. How can you feel so good for a few days and then wake up feeling completely the opposite? I’m going to chalk the ‘feeling bad’ down to feeling “let down” after leaving my girls. And I am going to draw a line under it and start again.

If there’s anything I have learned over the years, It’s that my mental illness will never go away. I know that when I do feel good I know that feeling won’t last. Ditto for feeling bad. When I feel so depressed and horrible I just want to die, I know this too, won’t last. The only thing consistent about mental illness, is that it’s never consistent! So I am going to forget the low feeling I’m having and tell myself that tomorrow will be another day ~ and it will be a better one.

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