The life of an introvert

Just not feeling it the past few weeks. Been hibernating inside my apartment again. Mathilda is definitely back. Can’t seem to get anything done. (cleaning, laundry, etc,..) because I just can’t seem to find any motivation at all. I’ve been here many times before on my roller coaster ride of mental illness. So I do know I won’t feel this way forever. I’m just on a ‘low’ right now. All I can do is hope it doesn’t last long ~ and in the meantime I am back to tiny baby steps. Today, I will have a shower,… do the dishes,…and drive to Walmart,… Just 3 goals to accomplish. Less anxiety this way. Less pressure.

 I hate feeling this way. I feel so useless and lazy and a waste of space because all I do is hide away in my apartment where it is safe for me. Going out is too stressful at the moment. I do have to go to two appointments tomorrow which most people wouldn’t even think twice about going to ~ But I will have to really force myself to get out tomorrow whether I want to or not. I guess its back to putting the earphones on and listen to my Ipod while I do my shopping. (no one tends to bother with you when your listening to music) and then scurry on back home when I’m finished. My life is just that ridiculous right now. Again,… I just wish I was normal and could do normal things,… I really envy people who seem to have it all together.

Not much more to say really,….  Just going to have to wait it out until I start feeling better again.


1 Comment (+add yours?)

  1. robbear13
    Jul 04, 2016 @ 00:55:54

    HI! I’m sorry I didn’t catch this earlier. I’ve been facing a few challenges, which have turned me into the proverbial absent-minded butcher: he backed into his meat grinder and got a bit “behind” in his work.
    Blessings and Bear hugs!


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