Doin’ The Happy Dance

I know most of the posts I write for this blog are when I’m down and struggling. I guess that’s the only time I feel the need to write. Writing is therapeutic to me. It helps me work through the stuff I’m going through. But today I am writing because I feel good!  After my self-appointed week of relaxing and trying to get my mind and body back to some semblance of ‘normal’ I did start to feel better. This is encouraging. Because a lot of the time I get down and over-whelmed, etc,… it can take weeks or even months to get back to normal. ( or ‘my’ normal anyway) But here I am,…. feeling good and getting back to my decorating.

I have started the dreaded kitchen. It’s such a fiddly room to paint. I have purposely left it until last because I worry that it will get the better of me and I will become over-whelmed and end up a crumpled heap on the floor wiping away tears. So I decided to set myself some goals. I will do this section today, and then take a day off. I will do that section on Sunday and then take a day off. I still fight the OCD urges to “get ‘er done now” (and indeed I did stay up late tonight to finish this section ~ It’s 3:40 in the morning ~ I don’t think I will ever be able to change that but I do try). It will take me a lot longer to finish this way but I think it will help me from crashing into my down and depressed state. I guess I’m learning to take better care of myself and my illness. Score one for being positive.

I also had some good news from a government medication program that will help out with my prescription drug costs. They won’t be free, but they will be much more manageable to afford.  My GP and psychiatrist have been waiting for me to get accepted into this program so they can start prescribing better and more well-suited medications for my particular “issues” which can be complicated as I have over-lapping illnesses that make it harder to treat. I feel more optimistic now about my illness and care.

So look at that folks,… Positive, positive, positive,… 

Now if I can just teach Maggie how to paint