not the best of days today

Today is a typical situation for me. I have slipped a bit since I wrote just a few days ago. Won’t go into the hows but today I am sad and lonely. It is a long weekend here in Canada. I am going through my Facebook page and everyone is outside doing fun things with their family and friends. I am not. I want to,… but that agoraphobic ~ introverted ~ Mathilda seems to be back.

I have tried on occasion to explain why I can’t go outside and socialize but there really isn’t any words. Its like a fear wrapped in sadness.

But, hopefully this will pass quickly. I will turn today into a DVD marathon day. Snuggle up with Maggie and have some iced tea.

And hope that tomorrow is better.

Nearly 4 months clean

It has been a great few months for me. I’ve stayed clean and am now 119 days sober. ( day 1 clean date being January 22nd/16 ~ making it nearly 4 months)

I had my surgery which went very well. I was told there would be a 3 to 6 week recovery but I felt so much better the very next day.  I was up and around and didn’t even need painkillers. No more pain or attacks. I have felt great ever since. Both mentally and physically.

I had a few hiccups with my depression but I really did work hard at trying to keep myself as healthy as I could. I can now say that I  have definitely had more ‘good’ days than I have ‘bad’.

So all in all ~ Life is good. And I will definitely be working hard to stay this way. 🙂